People say that there are "plenty of fish in the sea" and there's always a "perfect someone for each individual".
They are right.
Before I met my fiance, I've been with quite a number of guys. No I'm not proud of it. I'm just saying that sometimes, there are a few obstacles that you have to face in life to get what you want to achieve.
Anyway, honestly, the people that I had been with were all nice in their own way. But majority of the relationship, I ended it. Why? At times, you have this feeling that you are no longer compatible with that person and that it's better for things to end immediately than snowballing the feelings. Am I right? Or am I right? ;)
Before the whole dating, I remembered that my first crush was with a white guy back in my old school in Hong Kong. He had the hair like Nick Carter (middle parted hair) minus the colour. He was more of a brunette than a blonde. Unfortunately, due to my nerdy looks (with Harry Potter glasses) and baggy clothes (hey, it was a hit in the 90s!), he didn't notice me in the 'other way'. We were just ordinary classmates and occasionally we would play dodgeball during recess with our other classmates. I think he's a model now. Cause I spotted his friendster page (when it was still a cool social networking tool) years back but never added him. Rats!
After my mother passed away and we had to move back to Malaysia for good, I got to know a boy who lived near my home. Same age, curly hair, fair skin and clever too. We got to know each other for awhile. Went dating at the playground. Hey we were still young y'know! Then we declared as a couple but.... it lasted just for a day. Yeah, a day. He broke up with me due to my family background. Long story. Did I tell you that I was 12 at the time? Haha.
Then when I entered high school, I was still into Backstreet Boys and the whole guys with middle parted hair. I eyed on one of my classmates who had the hair style. He was into the same music as me (2Pac, Cypress Hill, Bone Thugs & Harmony), he also supports Man Utd and on top of it all, we both love skateboarding. It was.. let's just say a "match-made in heaven" at the time. We were both shy by the way so when we wanted to communicate in class, we would give each other letters through my bestfriend and 'middle man'. It was hilarious coming to think about it but cute! We would have these drawings with little hearts. Puppy love. :P I think I probably still have the letters in one of the boxes. Been moving houses. Not sure.. Anyhoo, the relationship only lasted a few months. I broke up with him cause he was a smoker. I'm pretty much an anti smoker (minus my dad of course!). I just don't find cigarettes attractive. Well apparently my bestfriend (the middle man guy) had a crush on me too. I remembered he once asked in Malay but I'll translate for you here "If I had middle parted hair, would you fancy me?" I never took it seriously so I just laughed about it. Afterall at the time, I was still with the guy whom I nicknamed him sk8erboy. And me, sk8erchick. Hence my old hotmail address - sk8erchick something something.. :P (Oh God I hope he doesn't read this).
Ok moving on, I lost my bestfriend after he asked me to be his girlfriend when we were in Form 3. Never heard from him until recently. He added me on facebook but we hardly talk. He's really kind to me back in high school. We basically went everywhere together. We both had a BMX bike where we went to school together, skated together, went shopping - for skate stuff together. But I never fancied him in that kind of way. And of course even now. Oh don't worry.. my fiance knows about this. We (me and my fiance) even drove past his old house hoping that he still lives there. But nope.. He bought me Valentines gift despite not celebrating it. He bought me a beanie teddy bear and oh a necklace too. I still have it cause I'm the type who doesn't throw gifts away. Actually, I don't throw anything away.. just like my mother. So that one day I could look back at the old things and remember the good ol' days.
Right.. again, moving on. After Form 1, I didn't have any boyfriend up until Form 5. I wasn't interested in having any at the time. Not that I wanted to focus on my studies or anything, I guess I was pretty much occupied with my Police Cadet life. Yeah, I was in the Police Cadet club - a sergeant to be exact. :) Together with my bestfriend Azira, we managed the whole club. It was such an exciting feeling. :) In Form 5, I dated someone briefly but he dumped me right before the SPM exam claiming that he was going to study abroad after the exam. While I thought he was telling the truth, apparently not! I was surprised to see him in the same campus where I studied. I think he was studying Nursing. LOL. Not sure.. Anyway, while he wanted to be closed to me again, I was in a relationship with a guy who I had my sights on since the first day of class during diploma. I remembered me and one of my bestfriends targeted those who were good looking. Out of the few, I managed to hook up with one of them and boy, was I happy at the time! HaHa. The relationship like the previous, ended several months later. I ended it due to allegations by people on him. I won't give out details but whether it is true or not, I have no idea. But then we got back together the following semester and suddenly... he broke up with me. I guess what goes around comes around or in simpler words, Karma. Three days after the break up, I saw him holding hands with another girl. It got me so devastated that even my friends ignored me. Probably cause I cried too much. Coming to think about it, it was pretty hilarious yet humiliating! To end the whole misery, me and my bestfriend Azira went out to meet our old schoolmates. That was when I hooked up with one of my ex classmates back in school. It probably lasted three months which I called it off. Can't remember the exact reason! But he was nice by the way. Rebound guy? Nah.. It was just not meant to be.
Then I dated another of my coursemates in my uni. This time it was quite serious. He met my family (but never the other way around). We dated for several months.. actually 3 months. Most of my relationships lasted for 3 months. Again, I broke up with him. The reason? It's best not to dish out everything :) After that I promised myself not to fall in love again for a year at least. And yes, it was a success. Right after, I met my current fiance through two of my friends. Let's just say, they were my matchmakers. He studied in the same course as me but not in the same class but during degree, we both majored in different areas. He studied broadcasting and I did journalism. :) How he popped the question? I was visiting my grandma (late mom's side) in Kedah for several days and he brought me to Penang one day. We were watching The Omen in one of the cinemas and that was when he popped the question nervously (during the commercial) and not wanting to look eager and desperate, I hesitated for a bit and said YES! D'uh.. Afterall, I've been waiting for him to pop the question for quite some time. We dated for quite some time. But anyway, it was worthwhile. Afterall, we are now happily engaged! :)
When's the big day? We have a rough idea when we want it but I must say Insha Allah soon.. :)
Moral of this post: Sometimes, you have to 'jump' from one relationship to another to find the perfect someone. Maybe you just got out of a relationship and you are hurt inside but remember there's always someone for you.. :)